I was put up on the maternity ward with the new mums but given a private room with a bathroom thank goodness! It was about 2am by this time and my husband had come up to the ward with me carrying my bags; very kindly they said he could stay with me overnight. As I looked over at him and he looked shattered so I decided to send him home. He wasn't sure about leaving me but I reasoned that at least one of us should get some sleep; baby was showing no signs of hurrying and I would need him more towards the end of labour. They told me he could come back whenever I wanted the next morning; he made sure I was settled and headed home. I was given codeine and left to rest. The codeine knocked me out so I managed a couple of hours sleep; I woke up and just started pacing the room and then the corridors hoping that it would help things move along. The midwives changed shifts at 8am so after their briefing I was introduced to my new midwife duo, an older woman and a young trainee. They were both lovely but the younger lady was great; I met quite a few midwives during my labour and I will never forget their kindness.
My husband came back and settled in for the day with snacks. They had found me a ball to bounce on but it was too painful for me to sit on. The midwife tried rubbing my back but again I found that really uncomfortable. When they hooked me up to the monitors to check my contractions they could barely get a trace on them, although I definitely felt them! Maybe I should have twigged then that my darling boy was back to back but I didn't find out until afterwards, whether someone had said and I didn't hear I'm not sure. It all clicked into place when I found out later and maybe it was best I didn't know because I would have known I was in for a long, uncomfortable labour. When I was getting contractions the midwife was feeling my baby bump, waiting for it to harden up; it never did and my contractions were all over the place right up until I gave birth.
This was the longest day of the whole labour. I stopped taking the codeine because it's pain relief was barely felt and it made me woozy so I couldn't walk around. Lying on my back was agony and they lifted the bed up for me so I could lean over it with my elbows when I needed to rest. A few of our close family and friends knew I had been admitted to hospital and both our phones were full of texts and calls but neither could summon the energy to reply Later that afternoon a midwife came into our room and asked if I knew a Linda; yes, I replied, she's my mother. She had phoned the ward all of a fluster to find out if I was okay and they couldn't give out any information so could we let her know! I couldn't help but smile; everyone was waiting for the news of a birth and it just wasn't happening. The time passed slowly and before I knew it I was hitting the next shift change at 8pm and I think this threw me over the edge...I had hit 'The Wall.'